Monday, June 6, 2011

Another Year Older....23!

I have just made it through my 23rd birthday! While birthdays are exciting and fun, this one was also filled with a bit of heartbreak. While absorbing the fact that I was turning the ripe young (I can't call myself old-I'm only 23!!) age of 23 and that this new year would bring a great new adventure in my life, it also brought a dark cloud of sadness. It finally began to sink in that while I was about to approach new adventures in this new year of my life, I would also be leaving behind some of the best things in my life. This new step will in fact be a bright new adventure, but it will also be one of the most painful things I will have to accept. The upcoming tremendously huge goodbye:
I have to say goodbye to the college I fell in love with.
I have to say goodbye to the local Wacoans that have become like family.
I have to say goodbye to the place I've called home for the past five years.
I have to say goodbye to the sisters (sorority) who have gotten me through some of the hardest and most exciting moments in my life.
I have to say goodbye to all the places that bring about the memories from this chapter in my life. (the good and the bad-it's all the same)
I have to say goodbye friends.

I have been blessed in college to be surrounded by some amazing people. People that have been there with me through some definitely crazy moments, stressful moments, hilarious moments, heartbreaking moments, tragic moments, and most importantly thrilling moments. No matter what the situation my true friends always surfaced. They surfaced and stuck by me. For this I am forever grateful. I have grown a lot in college. I would definitely say I've changed. I've grown, experienced a lot of... well interesting situations, and realized a lot about myself. I've discovered my dreams, my passions, and my love for people around me. I love being able to be a friend, to help them to be there for those who have always been there for me. (hence the nickname from some-Mama) I think most importantly I became able to listen and be there for others. That being said, I feel like I have majorly gone off track (which will happen on more than one occasion, I apologize). What I'm trying to say is that this place has been home and actually have to go my own way, leave everything that has been my rock for the past 5 years. It won't be easy. There will be many tears shed. But until I have to actually face the tragic moment of goodbye-I will embrace the time I have left with the people and place I cherish so dearly and ignore the fact that I can slowly feel my heartbreaking over the goodbye I will soon face.

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